P O T A T O ' S W O R L D

When sth is definitely going to happen, deep down in ur heart do u wish to face the truth or do u wish to live in a white lie? To accept the truth n go on with life or jz try to change the fact? Tis thing has been struggling in me for months… Conflict n dilemma appear in my life almost everyday… from small issues such as wat to eat to bigger stuff such as my education and future… Sth tat i hav been dreading is going to happen soon… One by one ppl whom i care n luv will leave me… Sum for better lives sum for their future… I owaz said tt its okie, ill be fine when ur gone… I have been owaz trying vy hard to be strong in front of u… Deep down in my heart i rlei wanna do sth… At least do whatever i can to treasure my time with u… Things tt u hav told me do giv me hope n i reli hope tt they will all happen… Yet, a tiny part of my heart tells me jz face the fact instead of lying to myself… Sigh… No mood to blog de…

Hello ppl…. Here to blog again… Dun worry tis time is happy stuff… Keke…

 

So fast one yr de…. I M SEVENTEEN!!!!! Yeah… Means i can drive lu…. hehe… Anyway thanks for everyone who wished me… let’s see….

 

22nd June 1130 pm Mel mel called n wished me all da way Sibu… haha…. Kiasu fella… Alex smsed me aso… Also another kiasu fella… kakakakaka….

 

23rd June – MORNING 1200 am Roy called n sang me a birthday song den sleep de… after tt nobody called…. cz all say scared i cook porridge with roy… But dey aso got sms la… RACHEL NGE din sms me… wuwu… she slept at 8pm… hui yo… Den 1230 am Mel mel called again… Den we chat till 115am… Crazy la… Crap a lot wif him n his fren der… Den i went to sleep… Early morning dad woke me up… 7am… i was so sleepy tt i slept back… mana tau he kacau me till i wake up… den he wished me happy birthday and gav me rm100… hehe… den mum wished me aso… my family kinda force me cut da birthday cake so early… u noe y??? cz dey all wanna eat da cake… not reli wanna celebrate wif me de… den after tt i tried to sleep back… cant sleep pulak… start to on pc n play wanmei… play till 10am… syok de… den called roy to kacau him up cz time to go mv de… den i faster go prepare lo… he reached my hse ard 11 am i think… my maid opened da door for him… den i saw him carrying shoes n BIG BIG winnie da pooh… haha… after putting my presents den we left for kepong station… in da car roy gav me my kai mui de present lo… she gav me musical box… in mv we watched 200 pounds beauty… lined up almost half an hour jz to get tickets… onli got first row de… wat to do… no book early is liddat de lo… aiz… den we go makan sushi… jz placed order onli we realise 15 mins more till movie… we went in late lo… luckily jz missed a bit onli… i cried a bit in da movie cz vy touching ma… den after da movie nth to do… we decided go to yih wei hse see his baby… (Baby is wei wei de dog… haha…) back to station… found out roy din lock his car… luckily nth was stolen… yih wei din hav time to prepare cz we suddenly rush to his hse… but we waited for him la…. den after tt go to my hse wait for me to prepare lo… i faster bath n change… den look at da clock 730 de… roy still wanna play wanmei… hui yo…

 

23rd june – NIGHT luckily on da way to da curve no jam la… we reached at 8pm… duno y rachel dun let me go into tgi friday o… ask me go walk a while… walk half way de den she aks me go back pulak… wu liao la… i went into da restaurant looking for chang weng de spouse cz earlier he said he was gonna bring 1…. yuan lai is ah loong… tt night de dinner got 8 ppl lo… 6 guys 2 gals… Guys got Alex, Thanesh, Ah loong, Chang Weng, Yih Wei, Leroy… Gals onli me n Rachel… Den we faster placed order… while waiting for da order we chit chatted… Suddenly Da whole gang Gave me one Hairdband with butterflies on it n force me to wear throughout da evening… Other customers were staring on me la… Make me so pai seh.. When da dishes came, each of us gotta introduce our own food n got video-ed down…  After eating, tgi staff came n celebrated my bd… i was tortured for 15 mins… i was asked to stand onto da table… give a speech… sing a song… n dance… n spell missisipi with my butt… i was lookinh at my frens helplessly but none of them help me… frens kononnya… hmph… at last dey sang me a birthday song which i couldnt make out da lyrics… n shouted into my ears during da lst part… den my cake came… i was forced to take da candles out by biting them… den roy helped me a bit… finally i came to da last candle… when i was reaching it… sum1 pushed my head into da cake… my nostrils was filled with cream… PINK COLOUR cream… i was suffocating n rac accompanied me to da toilet to clean them… after cleaning i could still smell cream… IM GONNA FIND DA CULPRIT OUT!!!!!!! den its was present giving ceremony… chang weng came up with a stuffed toy… thanesh came up with a small bear with a rose… ah loong gave me a hug… rac n alex gav me a basket covered with newspaper… yih wei say he owe me one… den we went to take da tou tie… as usual… der were screams n shouts in da booth… da pic came out not bad… jz a few of da faces misssing here n der… haha… den rac gotta ciao… alex n chang weng accompanied her… i got a call from zheng hao saying his gang might drop by so i waited for them… while waiting i opened da present… rac was angry cz i opened without her presence… lol… den i got 4 pink turtles… hehe… mini to big…. keke… after waiting 20 mins… i called zheng hao… dey say dey r in spicy… forgot to tell me… hng… ask me join them… but too late… mum wans me home asap…. den roy dropped me in menjalara to meet my parents den went home…

 

24th June – MORNING – ex classmates ask me out… hehe… to celebrate me n jingling bd… supposed to meet in station at 10 am… mana tau i 930 onli wake up… paiseh la… cz i slept at 2 am da night be4… so i reached at station at 11am and met up wif khai yaan, kar ying, jing ling… den head for mv… we ate in kim gary with jun rong, chee man, hau keat, siok wan… dey gave me earrings n bracelet… hehe… after eating hk n sw wanna go back de… jr followed them… jl n cm go shop thier stuff den da 2 ky’s n me go shop n chit chat… hehe… we went back ard 3pm… i met up with jiunn herng, zheng hao n shuxin… we went yc a while…. after a while my mum wanna pick me up de… haiz… den went to pick up bro n head home lo… tt’s all for my celebration (i think still got 10S gang de summore)… hee…

 

I wanna thank everyone that rmb my bd, wished me n celebrated with me… i luv u guys n gals….

 

Hihi… here to blog again…. exams jz over… sum of u may think i shud be reli vy happy…. but i much to sad n down mood now…

 

Seriously, im reli tired…. i dun wanna carry tis burden… im not tt gifted or smart as u think… ppl changes when time passes… im putting effort in all the tasks given n tried my best…. im sorry if i cant giv u da results tt u expected… hope u noe tt no1 is perfect n understand tt i put my effort in everything i do… (though i may seemed slacking in front of u guys sumtimes…) its jz tt i dun wnana show da serious or stressed or down or sad faces in front of u… i seldom talk to u bout my stuff n my prob… cz i tot tt u guys wouldnt understand me… btw u aso hav ur own probs to be worried about… duno y, for sum reasons, ppl think tt i hav changed… changed into a more notti or rebellious child and sum of u may even say tt im starting to be like lala… tts a strong word u noe??? i still care for my studies… jz because i dress in not the way u wan tt doesnt mean tt im a totally changed person… i jz wan a new perspective of dressing n attire… i dun even think tt i dress like a lala… hope tt u guys wun be tt traditional thinking… haiz…

 

btw ill be having one month time as holiday… holiday it may seems… but im sorta grounded… not too many hang outs… too many hang outs will make others think tt im owaz going out, not staying at home, wasting my time n money while i should be home studying i guess… sum of u may think as a gal i shud sit quietly at home but not going out huh? at first i tot i could use tis holiday to hang out wif frens whom i neva seen in ages… i guess i though wrong… its reli hard for me to gain permission from my parents now… so i hope all my frens will understand tt… sorry guys…

Hey ppl, long time no blog de… i think tis is da first blog in 2007… Well, i never guessed tt it would be a sad thing to be blogged…

 

17th May 2007, my W850i got stolen…I onli used tt phone for like 2 months n 4 days… AND IT’S GONE!!!!!  Hate da fellow who stole my hp… May he be cursed… Haha… It was morning la… I went to col as usual… Waited for train… Alone in K Station… Train came and i went up… I saw a guy putting his sth into his pocket… din realise my hp got stolen… den when da door almost closed i felt my pockets…. My hp was gone… My ind went blank… I quickly ran to Xin n Alex… Threw all my stuff onto the flr and start searching frantically… My hp was REALLY gone…. we changed train in S Station n went back… Da guy was gone… But my mum was der ready to scold me… Den my bro add oil n scold me aso… I was so sad till i cried in public… I keep calling my hp… Thanesh Called aso… Surprisingly my hp wasnt off yet… Keep calling but no1 picked up… Told da staff der dey din care… (U guys hav bad service la….) Anyway my mum told me to go to col n stop searching… Haiz…

 

When i reach col… the first thing rac said to me is  WHY U DIN PICK UP UR PHONE????!!!!  I told her my hp was gone… Almost gonna cry again… Haiz… DEn went to bio class… Cant concentrate keep crying n crying… Den i called CW to pick me up in col… I wasnt going to let my phone jz get stolen liddat… He came n pick me up during break…. We went to search for my phone… Shops after shops…. It seemed hopeless… I cried till i slept in his car… My face was vy white tt time n my eyes all swollen… All my frens tam me which kinda cheered me up a bit… But still scared kena marah by my dad…

 

Fortunately, evening tt time, my dad din scold me la… jz nag onli… phew… but i think i wun be getting a new phone de… haiz… anyway im grateful tt i wasnt hurt or wat… den at nite still got frens cum n tam me… special thanks to them… RACHEL NGE SING WEI, ALEX KOH ZHI YANG, CHIA SHUXIN, JUSTIN CHIN JING HO, SIMON, YAP CHUN KIT, EE LEROY, THANESH, CHANG WENG AND A LOT MORE LA… SORRY IF I FORGOT ANY OF UR NAMES… well at least through this incident, i realised tt a lot of ppl care bout me… hehe…

 

P.S. Currently using my 016 number… U guys still can call n sms me…

Hihi… Here to add another blog … Hehe… Trials is over for me la…. Haha… after skul today we ordered pizza n celebrated… Sun bin celebrate Hui Yee n Wei Lun birthday… Hehe… Celebrated in skul… All eat till so siao… Screaming here n der… den two ky’s wanna go duno where ask me jaga their pizza… I ma jaga lo… When i see ppl hand wanna touch their food de i shouted at them cannot take… Wahsai den everybody looking at me ask y cannot… So pai seh leh… Den we all eat till 1 onli go kacau ppl n crap lo… I was holding a seafood pizza which was almost finish eaten… Den suddenly remembered i jz got earrings n cannot simply eat… Im so dead la… Haiz… Dunno tomolo will got elephant ears onot… Kena scold by rac leh… Wuwu… Kinda san fu la… Cannot eat tis cannot eat tat… Haiz… Kie la tat’s all for tis blog la… Bye…

Yesterday I went to Midvalley wif two of my frens… Kar Ying n Hu Wei…

 

At 130 pm we decided to gather in KTM Station… I met Khai Weng der… When Kar Ying n I reach station de… Hu Wei haven reach o… So un-gentleman like… Haha… den we bought tickets first.. Kar Ying so clever… Brought coins to buy ticket but ngam ngam for her onli… Da worker der went to makan de… I aso no change o… onli got one 10 ringgit note… So bad luck… Suan lo… Help Hu Wei to buy aso… Put rm10 into da machine out came 2 tickets plus rm4 de coins… so many n so sia sui… haiz… den took da coins n ticket den continue wait hu wei… din rlei wait tt long la… onli one train pass onli ma…

 

Den on da way crap in da train planning wat to do… Kar Ying n her hamburger ar… Still rmb i owe her one… Haha… Keep saying wanna eat mcd mcd mcd… Den when we reached der… Wanna watch ‘too many crooks spoil da baby’ mana tau we 2 blur blur de go der onli noe haven cum out yet… so stupid la… den wnana watch ye yan… but da time too late de… haiz… suan lo… go mcd eat… since no watch movie den go hunt for ppl de present… got around 5 presents to buy… haiz… den we 3 sampat de ppl see wat ngam our bd frens de present den rush to da place like chickens… shopped around 1 hr plus onli noe tt we still in da same floor… haha… Den continue hunt… sien de la go arcade play… i wanna dance de but den saw 3 pro der dancing dun wanna go sia sui myself… den go play shooting n driving lo.. hu wei went to fly aeroplane… keep complaining cant fly… haha.. den continue hunt for present… act i found sth suit one of my fren de… den got one si lai go n rebut wif me… suan la suan la… i so gud… dun wanna rebut… keep complaining all da way… den continue hunt for present… so sien cant find sth suitable.. gav up n go hunt for dress… haha.. nth to do.. den hu wei teman us lo… hunt till department stall saw a lot of dress grab a whole lot of them n went into changing room… haha… while changing hu wei de aunt came n meet him… left us two onli lo… dun care la… continue to play dress up… made da salesgals all mm sorng der… haha.. afer trying we two faster run away… to other shop n see…

 

Around 6 liddat decided to go home lu… Go to station see no1 der… so happy cz can sit… haha… our legs hurt like mad… den sit n wait… stupid train haven cum… den kar ying suddenly screamed n jumped off da bench… i was so shocked n ask her wat happened… she said got a kitten behind me… i was omg… so sia sui le… den continue wait… heard annoncement said tt train cancelled… wah… we two so bad mood… cz late de haven eat summore our fav show starting… hui yo… suan turned back n find taxi… ask hu wei teman us sit taxi back… hehe… cz scared kena robbed ma… he terpaksa teman us n leave his aunt shopping alone… den go taxi stand… my god… so long la da line… kar ying say her legs wanna break de… suan call frens who got car… call dai lou he no pick up… call ai leng… she say she cum to rescue us… haha… kar ying pulak call her parents… mana tau her parents were in kl aso… dey say dey cum lo… i called ai leng not to cum… she reached jln duta de… so pai seh… (sorry la ai leng)… While waiting car we sat down n chit chat der..

 

20 mins later Kar ying parents came de… Dey say bring us go makan onli go back… Den go selayang eat cz send me home first lo… Reli appreciate them le… hehe.. Then my parents came to restaurant n pick us up… Went home de lo finally… haha… so tired n unlucky la yesterday… Den came back home… lizard sms me n ask me on9….

 

My day din end der leh… Den came on9 chat a while send song to her… Yuan lai ask me on9 to send her ztf de song… hng… den bath de continue on9…crap wif jess n kkj till 2 am in da morning… Neva knew we 3 so fei de…. Haha… Den end up jess gastric n all cannot tahan de… So sleepy… Den off9… Tats de end of my day… Haha.. kinda funny think back….

Hihi… Tis blog was supposed to be added on Wed… But i was too sick n bz to add it… So now bou fan lo… Hehe..

 

Wednesday i was taking Biology 2 n Add maths 1… So unlucky la… Suddenly got sick on tat day… I was okie when i took Bio paper 2… Den after reccess take add maths one… Suddenly gone vy vy weak n almost faint… Knowing tat i reli mm tor de.. Faster borrow phone from Ms Lim to call my mum n pick me up as soon as i finish my paper…

 

Add maths paper start de… All start doing n scribbling on their paper… I also mz faster finish it… So i can go home… Quest 1, 2, 3 … till 14…. I tahan till tt time den suddenly felt vy cold start to shiver de… My hand went reli reli weak till cannot even hold da pen… Haiz… I cant tahan n slept de… Cant even hold da pen n write down de answers… Haiz.. Den Ms Teoh came in… I was still half unconsious… Den continue sleep till she told me my mum came… Wahsai 1230 de… Im so dead paper do half way… I woke up teacher asked me to do a few more n go back lo… Kinda lucky la at least its paper one… Still can catch up gua… Den i did a few pack my stuff n walk away… Whole skul was having exam when i coolly took my bag n went home… So lucky tat i din died… Haha… Tats all for tis blog… Bye

哈咯。。。又再用华语写我的布洛格了。。。

 

其实不是无言啦，只是给某人搞到这样的情绪而已。。。

 

你到底想怎么样？我觉得我没有做错事，也没有惹你生气。（或许不同的立场就有不同的看法吧！）

 

你叫我体谅你，我就体谅你。体谅总有一个限度，偶尔不开心想发泄一下。这样有错吗？而且我也是等到你考完时才告诉你我不开心的啊。有做错了吗？

 

放学时，你来接我。是想见到我还是这是你的责任？只想你再留朵5分钟，陪我聊聊，真得那么浪费你的时间吗？

 

最近你不开心，对我冷冷的。问你是就说没事。。。常常这样你知道我有多难受吗？你只顾着你的心情，常常忽略我。曾经答应过我，每当我伤心时，你都会不顾一切的来哄我开心。天真的我真的相信了。现在呢？你已经证明给我看我在你心目中的地位了。

 

你心里想什么我不知道，又不敢想你问个明白因为怕你不喜欢或我搞错了。物质的我一直希望有一线希望，又奇迹的出现。说真的，还有希望吗？就只有你可以给我答案。。。

 

我不知道该怎么好。。。

Haiz… nth to do now… Sienz la… So happen to came to my space… summore got mood to blog aso… hehe..

 

Holidays gonna end de lo… Tis hols sux a lot… First i cant go gai gai… unless u count tat im stuck wif 7 13 years old boys… Tat was da worst outing tat i ever had… Den spent most of my time sitting around fat mou… Lazy to study ma… Today suddenly realise tt trial 2 more weeks n i haven even touch my book yet… Geng ler? Furthermore sth happened in family… (Some of u might noe la…) To make things worse… So lonely, no hang out wif frens or him aso… To be much more precise rac onli cam over my hse for an hr to do her physics notes… calls n sms cut down a lot tis hols… Kena neglected… Bu suang bu suang bu suang!!!! Oh yea… Forgot sth aso… My hols is full of tuitions, intensif… bla bla bla… extra classes… So ma fan… Wish tat i wun hav to take da stupid exam aso… Haiz… n der goes my holiday… Its going to end soon n i gotta go back to skul n study more n get prepared for my trials (as if i could prepare 10 subs in 2 week)… Im a dead meat now… Haha… Kinda pessimistic now… must be affected by Jess da queen of pessimist…

 

Tats all for tis blog la… Muz continue to fat mou de… Haha… Bye…